"…and not for five minutes will I be distracted from the wonder…"

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Uncategorized — d-ashes on March 29, 2004 at 8:58 am

world is busy per usual but i’ve found a place that removes myself from the immediacy of the convoluted concentricities whizzing all around me…what is this synthetic peace that wanders within me??

stuff and things are getting done…was hard to get the ball rolling but rolling it is and I feel the better for it…collective is finally getting past its new, hip, baby stage and the real work can commence I think…the ‘new’ was exciting, but it felt as though the whole thing was being reduced to a commodity…my picture has been in two papers the last 2 weeks…one of which printed me @ two years younger than I am…i’m wondering where I can redeem the coupon…if it’s in print it’s gotta be true…i have confirmed that i truly disdain being in the middle of things…just let me work and lurk…

clouds are forming in the west and for the first time this year the air feels like it does before a good spring shower…please pour, my car is yellow…

had an excellent brunch with kay, aven, and lucky @ julep yesterday morning…was a perfect way to cap off mr. and mrs. hull’s wedding weekend…commute theme this morning: now is but the intersection of time and place…that one went some interesting places…made me want to tell time with mile markers…i’m working on it…

friends, relatives, and employers…

Uncategorized — d-ashes on March 25, 2004 at 9:42 am

a programming project has come my way that requires some work (but work for money, imagine that)…i regularly drop off the radar but thought i’d give fair warning this time…i will be at all of hollie’s wedding affairs but aside from that you ain’t gonna see me unless you care to come share a beer with me @ the lemcom building after 6 pm (and you are cordially invited to do so)…by the time i pop back up, rest assured it’ll be time to party down…don’t have too much fun without me…

leaves

Uncategorized — d-ashes on March 22, 2004 at 9:11 pm

it’s been a thoroughly relaxing two days in brookhaven, which was much needed after the super-fun craziness that was the st. paddy’s day parade…i saw all sorts of friends and had a blast over @ neely’s house before and after the parade…graham was in town for a wedding and i got to share his first parade experience with him, which was momentous…i also learned a key lesson in surviving parade saturday is to crash from about 6-10 pm…was most helpful in maintaining verticality…

there’s a beautiful sunset outside my office window right now…it’s one of those subtle, serene sunsets (pardon overly used ‘s’ alliteration)…no clouds, just the grey-blue of night at the top gradiating through lighter blues and yellows into the dying red…

i spent most of the morning raking up a fall and winter’s worth of leaves in the yard…was good to get some outside work done and not sit at a computer all day… eating lunch with brad at the inez i sat next to bernie ebbers…i always think of great, socially innappropriate questions to ask him when i see him around town, but i don’t know if he’d feel like answering…or maybe he’d plead the fif(th)…

the sun has set and it’s time for dinner…be beautiful and kind…

(c)reator/(d)estroyer

Uncategorized — d-ashes on March 16, 2004 at 8:50 pm

care to take a stroll with me?

racing sunbeams up 55 north…smile at stars invisible above me in the morning light…

i know 55 so well i think i can place what mile marker i’m at by the sequence of bumps i feel coming up through my tires into the steering wheel and into my hands…sound without hearing…i know a road better than i know a lot of people…it strikes me as weird and sad…

my friend ben says this site is ‘white’…i try to explain it is purely the echo of what i see, hear, feel…but he’s black, perhaps he cannot know me/this as anything but white…funny, i feel dark a lot…

the other day i got a strong, harsh, necessary lesson in power…i don’t understand how i can make another person feel so happy AND so sad…i am a creator and a destroyer…and so are you…we all accomplish each in the countless little things we do every day…a certain turn of the mouth…a certain cant of eyes…with silence and with talk…what have we obliterated today? what have we borne?

i am no less a fool than i am an angel…

collective.function(1) {there is no i}

Uncategorized — d-ashes on March 12, 2004 at 10:25 am

words can’t describe last night and there aren’t enough thank you’s to pass around…i’m still a bit dazed by the whole thing…it was just, well, beautiful…it is hard to type anything about the success of the event without it seeming self-congratulatory, but know that jess, jen, casey, and i were just another cog in the wheel of a glorious machine…thank you jackson, thanks so much….photo gallery from the event coming soon…i’m heading for the country…

endTime…

Uncategorized — d-ashes on March 8, 2004 at 10:35 pm

spalding gray’s body has been found…my own search for him over the course of the last 2 months, which found me in many strange and interesting places, now ends…thanks to mr. gray for one last mad, dark journey…turns out you were with me all along, which explains a lot, really…thank you and goodnight…

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